I really can't believe how much I've come to rely upon Jesse and how close I've gotten to him. I've only really known him two months but we've gotten so close. I feel like I'm losing another friend. It reminds me a lot of the fear I had about a month ago of losing Charita as a friend. I'm really, really scared. I always seem to have a falling out with all of my friends and I've hardly been able to stop them. I hope to god that it doesn't happen, but I'm just not sure anymore. I'm never sure when it comes to friends now. I see all these patterns in the past few years and I just dunno how the fuck I am going to break it. It seems too hard. Me, I just want things. And they, they never give it to me.
Could I be losing Jesse?