I don't even get to talk to him that often. He's like never there... I miss chatting with him, I do. I feel really nostalgic. Is that what's going on? I don't even know... but it's just I find myself thinking about him now. Not even in a wanting to be together way, but I'm nostalgic a lot, and I'm always wishing that I could be near him. I really want to see him. I'm getting more and more anxious and I really think that I should work towards visiting him this winter. I have to do this for my sake. I have to find out. It's eating at me, not knowing for sure what's going to happen.
I'm starting to debate whether I should still be writing in here. I know who reads this and I used to want to do this for myself, but not anymore. I've changed so much from who I started out as... and I can't create another user on here because it'll still be diaryland and because of that, it wouldn't change anything. I may actually start writing in livejournal. I hate being one of the statistics, but I can't help it. It doesn't feel right to be here anymore.
*Sigh* Why do I miss you so much? And now?