Chris IMed me yesterday and for a few minutes... well, more than a few minutes, perhaps a few hours, I thought maybe he had changed, but maybe he's the same. Perhaps people don't ever really change. Well, he doesn't that's for sure. He's still cheating on Alyssa at times. He mostly parties and stuff... but I dunno, for a split second, I felt like he had changed, or maybe that was my foolish hope that said he had changed. Maybe he will IM me again, maybe not, but I guess I have to constantly remind myself that he'll never be different each time we do talk.
I talked to Matt (I don't know if I mentioned him before, he's this guy I met at Irvine who likes to play smash) today and he seems so happy. He must feel at place among his friends or something. Maybe it's cause it's Christmas, maybe it's because we're on break. I don't know, but I know he's really happy. That makes me envious. He has a home. I want to find that home. I want to be happy.