This is the worst Christmas I've ever had. I'm poor and I have no money. I have to pay for school completely on my own and Paul's depressed and I kinda know why, but don't really. I have never felt so far away from him. I have tried my best and offered to go to Disneyland with my money, but he doesn't want me worrying about money later on. I have never felt upset to see him so down. I just wish he would share his thoughts with me. I dunno what to do. It's really frustrating that I don't really know what's going on and I can't make him feel better.