jason says i dont care, as in when ppl are sad, i laugh at them (i am exaggerating). i'm starting to think of that's true. it's just that i can be horrible at making ppl feel better, i am much better at just laughing it off. i dunno what i shuold do now. i dont want to piss anyone off... see, i am such a ppl pleaser. well, i dont' blame myself, just the way i am. i dunon what to do now. it's just that if i started going around asking ppl if they were okay, they would be so annoyed with me. i've been in their position and i know how that feels to be bothered, you know? plus, what does it matter, all they'll say is "yeah, i'm fine" and nothing more, even though they are not fine, but rather that they just dont want to talk about it. so why bother? just saves trouble i think. i dunno then, maybe i should start bugging ppl saying, "what's worng? what's wrong?" i only dont to that really becuz of me and jason. he made me realize that ppl are bugged when i ask them "waht's wrong?" so, i was just trying to be considerit... but then, not everyone is jason... i gottat start studying ppl. then i'll know how to act around certain ppl... this'll give me something to do. and i gotta stop studying chris... not that there's anythign left to study, i know enough already... ugh... i'm wondering if i like jason again... but i dont think i really want to take down that route again... anyway, i guess that's all for now.
*~AnNa