1) i want a boyfriend, but see i dont want one also becuz if i get one then i will be constantly scared that i will fall in love again, which will get me to be scared at my guy and therefore drift apart from him and it woud never work out so by getting a boyfriend i will only cause myself pain, which is the oppostite of happiness. the only exception i would consider is someone really quiet and doesn't talk much. but then again, i dont like it when ppl don't talk much so that will make me miserable too. so that wont work. so boyfriend or no boyfriend? this is just like me...
2) money. enough to get by anyway. my dad gives me 2 dollars a day and he's fucking cheap, so i have had to save money by lunch money! before i used to ask him money for going to the movies, and usulaly he didnt' give me enough money. so i started saving my own money. he knows i do that, cuz he said it once, "what do you do with all this money i give you everyday?" (meaning the lunch money, and i just think like you give me enough money!) but i dont answer him. i dont say anything. then i get outta the car and go to school without another though. and he's never said anythign about it again. so see, he's just dumb and he can't control me. but anyway, i need money. so waht's a girl to do? jack money that's what. i'll bet in my lifetime i have jacked over 500 bucks from them. but i'm okay with it. i realize they suck ass and they always will, so they pay me back with their money. it's just that when i jack money, i feel guilty. so if i had enough money and it was given to me that would make me happy. but they will never give me enough money becuz they are cheap and so i will never have enough money. so there's another blow.
3) a car. yes, that'll make me happy too. but i'm not allowed to drive yet so i dont do anything about it. i need a permit in order to drive and so nothing i can do about that yet...
so tell me somethign i can do that'll make me happy...