Life has been feeling weird lately, and I've been extremely bipolar and not like myself.
I don't know what's been happening, because my thoughts are still cluttered. I still can't seem to relate to any of my friends lately.
I'm extremely on the edge, and I'm not sure if I've fallen down yet or not. And if I have, maybe that's why I keep wondering if I can make it back. I feel so abandonded.
See, I feel so much emotions at once with me, yet... I don't know how to put any of it in words, it's like there's too much to feel to be ever put into words. I really liked my review at I breath, done by Lindsay. I know I got a 60/100 and you guys must be like, WTF? You're happy with a 60? No, I'm not exactly happy with a D, but I know that my material lately, has been really crappy and I haven't really put much emtion in here lately. It feels... kind of dull and melonchaly overall feeling. And this image of Hugh Grant really does not go with me.
I loved how honest Lindsay was. I would've given myself a D if I was reviewing.
You guys must totally think that I'm weird because I minded so much about HSReviews, that's not why. I felt that HSReviews was out of porportion, because they gave me an F for all the wrong reasons. Lindsay gave me a D for the right reasons.
I guess I haven't really talked because I don't know what to really talk about. I feel like everyday is just a repretation of the last. It's stupid, boring and dull. And just going through it makes me sad. I can count about only a few people who can actually make me feel good about myself. Esp Sarah, she's just so awesome. She reminds me of a puppy. You know what I mean? Puppies don't care what mood you are in. Whether you're happy or sad, they just go up to you and wag their tail happily, because you're there. That's how Sarah makes me feel, like she doesn't care what mood I'm in, she just likes me presence and I cannot think of people like that. To top it all off, she cares!
I feel like Andre has kind of let me down too. I don't know why I feel this and I think it really sucks, because Andre is such a great friend.
I haven't really talked to Chris lately, so he's out too. Jason doesn't really talk to me either. Not one bit, he did a little bit before, but now... he's just dead silent again.
I don't feel I can talk to any of the Reyes' about this. Or Nancy...
You know what I also realized about myself? I don't like it when other people keep secrets from me. I think I think this way because I share so much with my friends and they'd know that I'd tell them practically anything if they asked, but they don't do the same back. I guess I just feel sad about this because it really makes you think if you and your friends are really that close.
A lot of things are really confusing at this point in my life, and I know the past few entires were more ramblings of nothing, so if you're a reviewer, don't READ IT, it's REALLY boring. End of January and beginning of December are better entries to look at.
Guess that's all, hang in there for me guys. Enrique says I'll be back to normal by the end of this school year. Guess that's awhile.