i think i've been happier lately so yay! success... kinda. i'm happy with pretty much evertyhing at the moment. but you know what i find that i shoudlnt' have too much time alone cuz then i sarted wondering off into not so great thoughts. i start thinking abuot soemthign or someone so much that even something or someone i was so sure about could be so very doubted. so that's why i shouldn't have time to myself. ppl should always talk and shit.
i can't believe it's the end of the year, it's funny how fast it past by becuz most of the time (the beginning of the year) i was mopping around about the whole jeff thing and i didn't get over taht whole thing till january. then i realize how much has changed and how the world suddenly turned on me. but i'd like to think that it's passed by me now at least, for the while. then just a bunch of new stuff started happening around me and that's about where i am now. so i'm just wondering how this last quarter will go. the only think i'm sensing right now is that it'll have a good ending somehow... i dunno how i feel it or know it, but i know i will get a good ending or something. i can't wait for this month to be over... i got like all these assignments due for english and i wanna survive! lol. i'm thinking about what's in store next year and the only thing i'm fearing right now is the fact that nothing big HUGE will happen so school days will pass by really slow. i know everything passed right before me in the beginning of this year becuz i was depressed. but it's going to be different next year so i'm kinda scared that it might be boring, and i dont like boring becuz i'll be bored... and school days will be all long and shit and i'll be bored outta my mind for like 9 months.... arggg i dunno... you know that i liked preditbility more than anything, and since i can't really predicit anything, i'm kinda annoyed... grr... oh well...
*~AnNa