I feel like a bitch today. All I've done today is sleep and read. I've slept over 12 hours... boy that feels good. I have not heard from Chris since yesterday when he said that he had that gig. This annoys me because I shouldn't be thinking about him. My life shouldn't revolve around thinking about his gig... At least not today.

I'm so glad it's February. No offense to January or anything, but I'm so ready for that month to be over with. My brithday is in exactly one week. Next Sunday, I'll officially be 17. Let the countdown begin! I'm not really excited that I'm going to be 17, but I am glad I won't be 16 anymore, but then again, I feel like this every year around the time my birthday comes. The sad thing is, I don't have anyone to celebrate it with this year. I think it's the idea of celebrating my birthday alone, kind of gets to me.

I've been meaning to talk about this for awhile now, but have anyone heard about how Michelle Branch posed for Maximum (sp?), this soft-core porn magazine. I didn't see it, but my friend said that she was half naked, but you know, covered herself. I don't get it. Why do they do it? I really liked Michelle because she wasn't like someone that did that kind of stuff, not like Britney and Christina. I'm so disappointed! I couldn't believe it when my friend told me last week! Well, I still like Kelly Clarkson, and hopefully she won't pull anything like that. I don't get it. Why can't people just do what they want instead of doing what the public wants or what everyone else does? The only thing I can really say is, at least Michelle is really talented and she writes her own music and plays the guitar. If it wasn't for that... well, I wouldn't like her in the first place then...

I'm so sick of the fact that people change, I mean, even Michelle just did it. That pisses me off. When I get used to something, something else always takes me by surprise. I hate the way things are and everytime I try to change it, nothing ever goes quite the way I plan it. I get so frustrated trying to do everything myself, when maybe I shouldn't be doing it myself, but no one else ever does anyway. I wish I could just relax, but I can never seem to. It's really silly and stupid, 'cause you know this 3-day weekend, I've been pretty much bored out of my mind since I don't have any homework for finals week, but when I have homework, I'm always pissed off about that. There's just no pleasing me I guess.