I haven't been feeling too good about the things that are going around me lately...
I snuck out last night and now I kind of regret it. Don't worry, I didn't get caught, but I still wished that I hadn't gone. I felt like I made an ass of myself and I acted like such a bitch to Fyto... well, I was a lot worse to other people, but still. I did get a small moment to talk to Fyto where I was civilized and I think that Fyto realized that I was angry at myself, at least I hope he realized it. My attitude had nothing to do with Fyto. I wonder if the mood swings had anything to do with the fact that I was PMSing. I never thought that that kind of thing affected how I felt at all, but lately, I'm beginning to think otherwise. I kind of feel like I've been having huge mood swings. On Saturday I felt like I was in love Fyto, and then Sunday night, or early morning rather, I felt back to normal. Something's up with my hormones and I'm all out of whack. I wish it would stop because I'm sick of this. This is spring break; it's the worst week to be PMSing.
I don't even want to study for my AP tests, but I really fucking need to. I can't stand this. I wish it was May already. I'm so tired of this.
I wish Fyto would call. I want to talk to him. I don't think we're going anywhere tomorrow, even if that was brought up. He thinks that he might be coming down with the flu. I wonder if he's anything like Chris. I guess if he is, he's either gonna go through tomorrow without calling at all, or call at the last minunte and say "come over." I perfer the first one, because I don't think he's going to call me just to say we can't do anything. It's more than a hunch. Why do I fall for these guys? But you know... Fyto is not Chris, that I know for sure.