I met some people online the past 3 days by going to chat rooms. I don't know why I have started doing this again, but it's become addictive. I should be asleep but I'm doing this instead... yep... come tomorrow, I will be very tired... can't stand this shit.

I always feel depressed at night... I don't know why. I feel like I wake out of this trance and I start to get sad... Sometimes I swear I have a bipolar disease, but I'd rather not confirm it. I'd rather live blissfully with a chance that I'm normal than to be diagnosed.

The only time I do like the night is when I'm outside and there is someone with me and I'm just chatting. I love that. Those were the funnest days of my life, and then you came and took it from me, and now you're not even there to blame.