I guess I've danced around this subject a lot now, going back and forth about whether I'm okay with this. I guess truth be known, I would like it if the physical side weren't so much on overdrive all the time. Sometimes I don't like the idea that I get turned on so much because then I don't feel like I'm in control anymore and the thought of losing control scares me.
I've realized that I was wrong about Eric in another way though. Remember yesterday I mentioned that Eric wasn't interested in the things that I do? Well... we went to Nickel Nickel yesterday, this arcade place. I told him that I didn't have a lot of money so he paid for us to get in ($7, cheaper than movies) and we ended up staying there till 10:30. We played air hockey and for once, I actually beat him. Of course then we went for round two, and he beat me. Then we played a lot of the free games. But Eric had purchased $3 worth of nickels so we had to play the games that cost nickels, but we had a hard time deciding which ones to play so that's why we ended up staying there for as long as we did.
After awhile I wanted to play DDR but I felt like I should use my own money because for some reason I felt like Eric wouldn't approve of my playing with his money a game like that, but Eric saw me going through my wallet I guess because then he handed me the pack of nickles and I took 8 out (40 cents for DDR) and I played and I lost on the second round. Yeah, I know - it's depressing, but it was because I accidently sped up the music by 20%. I didn't know I could do that. Plus, I was wearing flip flops. I tried barefeet but that hurt my feet... Anyway after that we played some more free games and such. After awhile Eric began being pretty persistant with the whole pick-which-game-you-want-to-play thing because he kept asking me what I want to play and the truth was I didn't know what to play. I'm indecisive, he knows that. We passed by this game with a keyboard on it and I was supposed to hit certain keys at certain time and Eric told me to play it. I said that I would lose for sure and he said no way and he had me try. I knew I would lose because I've played it before and it's not as easy as it looks despite that I've played piano for 7 years. It's a totally different story on that game. Despite that I always knew that Eric knew I played piano, it just made me feel better that he made that apparant I guess.
After that I said I wanted to play this other game where you have move your hand over this round thing at a certain beat. (You notice most of these games are DDR-ish?) I played that for a round and while playing it, Eric comes up behind me and holds me. I love it when he does that, but I think he noticed that I lost my concentration so he let me go. After I defeated the whole 5 songs, Eric put in another 12 nickels (6 per person) and we played together. He's totally uncoordinated, but it means a lot to me that he tried it because I liked that game. He ended up having fun, which is all the better.
After that I went back to DDR because I saw this person leaving it. I lost on Dam Dariram, this song I have been trying to beat for the longest time. Still no luck. Then I think Eric handed me the nickels as a gesture to try again and I said, "but it cost 8 nickels" and he just said "so?" I don't know why, but that meant a lot to me. DDR is the most expensive game in the whole arcade. It just means a lot that Eric would be cool with spending a lot of money (well, not really but you know out of all the other games, I guess it is) on a game that I like but he doesn't. I asked him to try it but he said that he couldn't because he had hurt his knees the other day. I wonder if that meant that he would've done it had it not been for his knees. I guess I might ask him later. I don't know, it just means a lot that he would try because it's something I'm into.
Man, Eric's so great, in every way.