My review from pink sugar said that I am writing for an audience and not for myself. I guess, I don't intend to do that, but I end up doing it because I do not feel like there's anything I could write for myself. I do not feel that I need to write things out to remember them anymore... So I guess, I'm just writing for the heck of it.
Ahh... I don't know. Well, the reason I haven't written in awhile is because, I guess that I was busy. I've been really tired lately, and computer usages have been rare because my family all want to use it.
I went swimming yesterday with some friends, and I think I might have gotten a cold. I could really care less though, it will go away as soon as it came if it's a cold.
I was supposed to play tennis with Susan today, but that obviously did not happen. I think maybe she fell asleep again, so whatever.
I had a dream about this guy yesterday... it was really weird and made no sense. All that I remember was this really hot guy who was asking me why the sound on the computer didn't work. He was into me, I could tell.
Now that I think about it, it reminds me of around last week, when this entry happened. I was referring to Jeff, but I think I am over it. I wish I would stop feeling so lonely all the dang time. It's so hard to find someone to communicate with nowadays. God...
And you know what I really hate? Friends, because I have the hardest time keeping friends. It seems that I always end up doing something fucked up, where they get mad at me, and then I feel bad... and yeah. I hate that. I just can't have close friends, I am not meant for it, especially because, it's human nature to expect things and then to end up getting hurt. It's just so damn hard, and I do sometimes wish that I didn't have any friends... *sigh* If you're a friend of mine, please don't respond to this paragraph...
Anyway, I'm going to go now... I should do some reviews. Bye.