I was looking through some old entries. I have been doing that a lot recently, and I went through entry 12 and I found myself saying, "but as for the way he always acts around his friends, I don't think that's even him" about Chris. In thinking about the converstation that I had with Chris yesterday, maybe, that is the real Chris. Maybe Chris is Chris when he is acting like that around his friends, that maybe the serious Chris I know... is just the way he behaves around me, that maybe I MAKE HIM different (without trying to). He told me that he's friends say that he's different around me. I'm not sure what to think... but I guess I was wrong then... maybe it's me.